Make a Difference

Stanton has been healthy for the last six weeks!  We have made a couple of changes with his medications including adding Claritin , dropping Miralax to every other day and removing Prevacid. The Claritin seems to be working against the runny nose and mucus build up while the Miralax is keeping his system from backing up. Stanton has been on Prevacid since he was 10 weeks old.  The buffer compound that we use to mix it is no longer available, so our pediatrician agreed that now would be a good time to stop and see.  The longer we go between illnesses, the more courageous he becomes with food. I’ve seen a real increase in appetite without Prevacid.  I’ve been astonished as I watch Stanton eat and enjoy macaroni and cheese, carrot soufflé, hotdog, peanut butter, yoo-hoos, cinnamon rolls, pound cake, banana and granola.  In therapy he’s actually licked a variety of foods and textures without much complaint.  We are still holding our breath, waiting on the crash….but so far, we’re really enjoying a healthy Stanton!

The film crew for Abbott nutrition came over on Sunday to meet us and get to know Stanton.  He seemed really comfortable with everybody and spent the afternoon building legos, reading books, crashing blocks and playing space with the crew.   They were all super sweet and really great with him.  Luckily, the day of filming was a nice day and the crew got some great footage of Stanton playing outside being a wild boy.  They spent the afternoon filming us playing, reading, eating mac n’ cheese, being a big brother….it sort of felt like we were on a reality TV show as a camera man just followed us around.  Then it was time for make-up!  The make-up artist airbrushed make-up on and really pampered me.  I don’t usually wear lots of make up, so it was strange….but I must admit – fun.  The crew explained that they wanted us to focus on how Elecare has made a difference in Stanton’s life.  John and I took a trip down memory lane and looked through old pictures remembering that before Elecare, Stanton threw up at least twice an hour.  He spent his days lying around with no energy.  He was super emotional all the time and never felt good.  John and I took turns sleeping in his room as Stanton would wake up several times during the night to throw up.  Once we discovered Elecare, Stanton was already 20 months old.  Within the first few days of introducing this amino acid formula to Stanton, his vomiting decreased SIGNIFICANTLY from an average of 32 times a day down to 3 or 4 times a day. We realize that Elecare changed our lives by giving us a better quality of life.  During our filmed interview, John and I basically focused on this part of our journey.  We realize that Stanton has other issues, and we still don’t have a diagnosis, but we didn’t get into those issues as the point of the filming was about how his nutrition, health and feeding have improved due to this medical formula.

Abbott will use the footage to create a patient testimonial for medical conferences.  They will also put a short 90 second segment together for their website, however, this segment must be approved by the FDA – so who knows when that will be ready for release and what it will look like.  As soon as we have a link – of course I’ll share it with you! 

This is Stanton "on set" as we tested the sound

In the midst of dealing with the film crew, Cincinnati Children’s Hospital called.  They have scheduled Stanton for the week of February 20^th.  In addition to meeting with several specialists, he will also have a swallow study, a CT scan, a feeding evaluation, x-rays, an exploratory surgery/scope and internal biopsies with the otolaryngologist, gastroenterologist, and pulmonologist, a ph probe inserted to measure acid levels and follow up appointments with all the specialists.  It will be an extremely stressful, but hopeful week.  I ask you to all send us positive energy and prayers as we begin to make our travel arrangements and prepare for all the testing.  It is always an emotional time for our family…the anticipation of what’s to come, the hope for answers, the reality of process, our history of no answers, the financial burden.  It’s all part of our fight for Stanton’s continued health.  We do this to ensure that he will grow into who is to become and make a difference in this world. 

What's new?

I know, I know….my past few posts about Stanton’s health have been the same story!  We continue to face the same issues – nothing health wise has really changed.  He’s loving school and really loves being a big brother to his 5 week old baby sister!  It’s been interesting trying to balance his health with a newborn baby girl!  So many have asked what’s next?  Where we will push next; what doctor we will visit.  I am just recovering from having a baby….and am not ready to travel with one so little and the other chronically sick.  I do have some ideas of where I’d like to push and investigate next, I’m just waiting for baby girl to have some vaccines and for us to get through the holidays.

Stanton awoke on Halloween morning with a terrible cough.  He spent the entire day sounding like an old man; coughing and sputtering.  I gave him extra breathing treatments trying to keep him going so we wouldn’t miss trick-or-treating.  That night we made it to my sister’s for a party and trick-or-treating.  Stanton made it to about six houses before needing to sit in his stroller.  I literally had to talk him into knocking on two more doors before we decided to call it a night.  He had fun while it lasted, which wasn’t very long.  When he has a respiratory flare up, the wind is truly knocked out of him and he simply has zero endurance.

As a mother, my heart is broken for my son.  I realize he doesn’t know things should be any different, as they’ve been this way for his whole life.  I acknowledge that I am in the midst of grieving this reality.  I wish he knew what it felt like to really feel good.  I’m not sure he’s ever had a day where he felt “normal” inside.  If it’s not his cough and difficulty breathing, it’s a pain in his stomach.  If it’s not his stomach, it’s a reflux kind of day.  If it’s not reflux, it’s constipation.  If it’s not constipation, it’s a day of blow-outs.  If it’s not a day of blow-outs it’s a day of low energy. If it’s not a day of low energy, it’s a day of unexplained hives.  If it’s not hives, it’s a hunger strike kind of day.  And so on…    

I used to pray and hope for healing, but now I find myself asking simply for today.  I pray that today Stanton will have a good health day.  I pray that today, maybe a doctor or new idea will present itself.  I pray for energy to continue aggressively fighting this battle.  It’s hard to look past today, for in the past when I have, I’ve just ended up disappointed or with more questions.  So, to survive all of this with some sanity, I have learned to take things one day at a time.  As I’m typing this, I realize it sounds depressing…..which I’m not!  This letting go has  really allowed me to enjoy just being in the moment, which has been so freeing for me! Before Stanton I was a planner and very “type A.”  He sure has taught me to really let go, go with the flow and be flexible!

Speaking of being flexible – he’s awake from his nap, crying and gagging…I’ll post more when I can!

Partners in Crime

It’s official.

I know I shouldn’t feel surprised or disappointed….but I am a bit. I’m only human and the momma after all. My educated brain knows that 60% of kids with severe reflux have it, or that’s what all the research I find on-line suggests. I mean, we’re already treating Stanton for it with a daily breathing treatment called Pulmicort. Looking back over the last three years, we’ve treated most of the classic symptoms and flare-ups, however, each doctor, ENT, Immunologist, Allergist, Gastroenterologist, etc. we’ve seen has tip-toed around calling Stanton’s chronic lung/breathing issues what they really are….until today. ASTHMA - today Stanton received a diagnosis of asthma. Asthma and Reflux are truly partners in crime.

Since July 30th we’ve been to the pediatrician three times. On July 30th we went after Stanton crashed. This is what I’ve jokingly describe as his “time of the month.” Every three to three and a half weeks, the bottom just falls out from under Stanton. The mystery dots appear, the refusal of oral intake begins the clear runny nose kicks in, the vomiting eventually explodes and his oxygen levels plummet. On August 10th we went for an ear infection and increased reflux. Today we went for the right on time three week crash.

surviving on Mommy and Daddy's bed

The pediatrician obviously knows our situation and history and understands that getting a prescribed antibiotic down him is impossible. So, poor Stanton received a big shot of rocephin. We have all the inhaled and dissolvable steroids at home…so that’s where we are now, continuing to alternate the breathing treatments between Pulmicort and Xopenex. I’m hoping that Stanton will begin drinking something again by tomorrow so I can hide the dissolvable steroids in his Elecare formula. That’s the only way to get them down without a huge throw-up episode. (He hasn’t had any Elecare since Saturday around lunch).

Once we are over this episode, the pediatrician wants us to increase his daily Pulmicort breathing treatment from once to twice a day and see if that makes a difference. He also suggested we start watching to see if Stanton’s episodes become more frequent now that he is in school. If they do, the pediatrician wants us to seriously consider taking Stanton out of school. He said it’s his either his social development or his health and right now we may not be able to have both. UGH!!!! I thought we had finally arrived at something normal!!!! And Stanton really LOVES his pre-school. We’ve had zero transition issues. So I’m keeping my fingers crossed that it won’t come to this.



A couple of days before Stanton crashed



Connect the Dots

As I dressed Stanton for school this morning, I noticed the dots. They’re back! All over his torso, sides and slowly spreading to his back. I looked at the calendar and guess what? It’s been three and a half weeks since the last dots occurrence. It really is every three weeks or so. He was super irritable and weepy this morning. However, he wanted to go to school. With no other symptoms, I took him.

Stanton was excited when he walked into the school. He ran right in his classroom and hung up his backpack! When I picked him up he looked tired, but was still all smiles. He even gave every child a hug before leaving. His teacher said he had a good day. When I got him in the car I looked and noticed out of the 10 ounces of formula I sent, he only drank 2. No wonder he seemed tired and lethargic…..I thought. So, he drank another 2 ounces in the car on the way to speech therapy. At therapy he began complaining that his ear and head hurt. Sure enough, his left ear is draining.

As soon as we got home he sat down at our kitchen island and started profusely vomiting…..everywhere. Once I calmed him down, got his wet clothes off, sponge bathed him and settled him down on the couch in just a diaper, he fell asleep. Thankfully his draining ear was facing up, so I dug around in his cabinet and found some left over antibiotic single dose ear drops and gave him dose. I haven’t decided if I’ll take him to the pediatrician or not. I guess I’ll see how the rest of the afternoon goes and if need be, take him in the morning.

It’s only his second day of school. Looks like he’ll miss day three. Bummer!

I wish someone, somewhere, would connect the “dots.” I feel strongly they represent something more going on inside his little body…hmmmm….

New Ventures Ahead

  I’ll go ahead and admit it …. the past four weeks have been tough!

Stanton continues to be trapped in this cycle of having a few good weeks…then the mysterious rash appears…then the grumpy, un-pleasable Stanton emerges – which inevitably leads to major reflux flares or upper respiratory illness or the combination of both! Currently we have the pleasure of dealing with the combination of terrible reflux and a sinus infection. Yes, joy of all joys!

We have frequented our pediatrician’s office an average of every 3 weeks since November. We love our pediatrician, Dr. Schepens, but I’m sure she would love not seeing us so often. We were there just yesterday for the sinus infection and I expressed my frustration with this pattern we can’t seem to crack. She said all of his symptoms point to allergies. Well, we’ve seen three allergists: one local who laughed us out of his office, one at Ocshner’s who did a ton of blood work all related to food allergies and immunological issues, and one in Cincinnati who did the skin prick testing for food allergies. Dr. Schepens pointed out that no one has tested Stanton for environmental allergies and that we should explore and rule them out, so she has referred us to another local allergist. He has only been in the area for a couple of years and she has heard lots of good things about him. So, on June 1st we will try again to communicate with our fourth allergist, Dr. Niolet.

Our team of therapists at the Children’s Center, in Hattiesburg, also think all of his symptoms point to allergies! So, as of this week, we are now on a strict elimination diet. The therapists took the time to contact all of our local therapist and our team in Cincinnati before recommending the diet. Everyone is on board! Basically, Stanton will just have his formula and medications for 10 days. Then, we will reintroduce one preferred food every 4 days. During this time I have a very detailed chart to fill out daily and submit. I must chart when he drinks, how much he drinks, when he gets medication, when he throws up, if a rash appears, when his behavior changes and when he has blow out diapers. Our team feels this could reveal a sensitivity to a medication or a food and will help rule out why he is continuing to feel bad and vomit so frequently.

We’ve also learned that Stanton’s MRI has been scheduled for next Tuesday, May 24th. Please keep us in your prayers as we aggressively venture down these new paths. It is a lot of information for us to keep up with - but we will do whatever it takes to make our little Stanton feel his best!

"The Lord is good, a Strength and Stronghold in the day of trouble; He knows (recognizes, has knowledge of, and understands) those who take refuge and trust in Him." Nahum 1:7

With thanks and love,

Ginger